I don’t even give a shit at this point
(Okay, yeah… I obviously do)
I just have one question: How the fuck does a dude spend four straight days with his girl (his idea/choice.. mind you) and not show her any sort of affection?
What the fuck?!!!!
Okay, make that two questions….
It’s 5:08 AM and I’m wide awake on the couch pondering these things while you are asleep in my bed. Or maybe you’re wide awake in my bed thinking similar thoughts. Or maybe you think nothing is wrong. Clearly, we have issues. One being that we don’t communicate the way that we should. I say this as I not-so-secretly blog about my frustrations in hopes that maybe you’ll read it.
What are we even doing here?
Make that three questions.
You once told me that you missed “the way we use to be” when we “really cared about one another” … well, I miss the way we use to be too. The only difference is, I do really care about you…then & now. I don’t understand why you keep coming back if you’re really this disinterested in me. Sometimes I wish I could transport back to two years ago and save myself the heartache. Other times I wish I’d really truly believe that I deserve more than what you give me. Most of the time I just wish you would change for the better.
